I found this chatroom that caters to the type of people that I want to talk to, and I wish there was a ban feature.
I was chatting in a gay chatroom, having a great time for once, when some loser kid from austrialia come in to tell us, in his borken spelling, that " all gays must die and he was going to do it."
I asked how, and he said that he was going to put a bullet right between my eyes.
I don't think I have ever been directly threatened because of my sexual orientation. Especially in a room that is full of other gay people. The next half a hour was spent belittling him, but I didn't feel any better for having embarressed him, since it probably wouldn't stop him from doing it again.
As soon as he left, another guy came in and said the exact some thing, well, close. Not the same, but the sentiment was shared with the other guy. This one was only a drive by, so to speak, but it was still annoying.
When is it going to be okay to be gay? I met some interesting guys in the chatroom, and they all were still in the closet. One I could understand, being inthe US military. The same thing they said over and over is that they don't want to attract attention by being out. At the same time, they are miserable because they are living a hellish kind of lie, the kind that makes you unhappy. When you are in the closet, the way you live is in secret, bottling up who you are. I can see, tho, how they could be discouraged because of ingnorant mooks like the 17 year old from Austrialia.
I wouldn't be happy, anywhere near as happy, if I was still living that lie. I wonder what exactly prompts people to go to these chatrooms and stir up shit. I'm pretty sure that gay people, for the most part, don't run into straight chatrooms and scream breeder like it was a new name for leperosy. I know that there are people out there that aren't tolerant, but is it really too much to ask? If you don't have anything nice to say, don't say it at all. That sound familiar.
IT is hard to keep that kind of ideal when someone is trying to belittle you.
It reminds me of my greatest fear, and that is to die like Matthew Sheppard did. For those of you who don't know, he was a gay man that lived in Wyoming that got lured out to a field and beated to a inch of his life and then strung up to a fence in the middle of no where to die. Three days later he was found, and then died on the way to the hospital.
Now, I am not a violent guy by any means, and to think that someone would do something like that to me, just because I am gay, that jsut makes me afraid. No one should be living in any kind of fear.
So, in a total of 2 hours of talking time, there were 16 people that came into the two rooms that I was chatting in and made such comments. One guy asked us for addresses so he could come for us. What kind of people are out there. I personally don't try to push my sexuality in anyone's face, so why should I be a victim, if someone chooses to make me one because of this?