Falling for the First Time?

Published on October 23, 2004 By Amitty In Life Journals

Okay, first off, I never thought Iwould be discussing something likethis about my personal life in open forum.

I posted a article about a friend that found the girl of his dreams in the internet, and now something simular has happened to me. Now, not to the extent of my friend, but not just your average encounters either.

There is this guy I met in a chatroom, and we started talking on MSN. Nothing unusal about that..until last year, I had managed to have over 700 contacts on my MSN. IF there is one thing I love about life, that is meeting people. Some of the best people I have met have been located somewhere in the world that isn't here.

So, I have been talking to him...long, really long marathon conversations where no matter what, the talking doesn't stop. It is great, and I like that I have someone to talk to when I can't sleep, like tonight, but he is away.

I get a weird feeling talking to him. When I log onto MSN, and he isn't there, I get a little pang of regret. When he is there , I can barely keep track of some of my other conversations with other friends. We talk, we MSN name flirt (something I didn't really know existed) and have great times. He signs off with kisses and hugs, and offers me to stay with him if I am ever in hisneck of the woods. I spent time with a ex recently, and he kidded me about it, and told me about these guys that told him he should be a model, and stuff....
and I was laughing, and told him to go for it. He said no. And then asked if I was still interested in other guys. I said no. " And no other guys, I promise."
What does that mean? Did I mean that I was going to be....celebate...for him? That scares me, making a weird committment like that. And what about him?

Well, I'll tell you. He just got out of a relationship, and he ain't straight. his 3.4 year relationship with a girl kind of makes me wonder. I've never been attracted to a bi guy before. I always used to say I wouldn't date one because he could dump me for a woman, and that was somehow terrible to me.

I don't know..I'm pretty confused. Things on both sides seem to be rapidly happening...I was thinking I have two options:

1. Be all lovely dovey I want you, or...

2. Get the hell out of dodge.

I was jsut wondering if anyone would care to offer a suggestion?

Comments

CrispE

on Oct 23, 2004

Amitty:

Let's say you frequented a Starbucks and had some conservations with someone you didn't know but saw at Starbucks quite often. Maybe they lived in an area of town you had never been in but worked around where you do. That is equivalent to what you are talking about here. How would you handle that if they asked you out?

Most people you will meet on-line are (IMO) about as honest, exaggerate as much as people in a coffee shop. You get to know people as life goes along, not usually up-front.

Just an opinion.....

MasonM

on Oct 23, 2004

I would definately agree with CripsE and add that, as much as you may converse with this person on the the net, you still really don't know him. I would urge a bit of caution here. There are a great many freaks and predators out there in the big wide world who represent themselves very well via the net and turn out to be creeps or even dangerous.

Just keep in mind that, in the end, this is still a stranger to you.

Amitty

on Oct 23, 2004

Of course you guys are right....
I realize that..but, what is this part of me that wants to toss that into the wind and say screw it?

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